This song makes me float :)

And the biggest loser is...

    I knew it wouldn't last forever. All good things must come to an end, it's just the law of the universe. I was briefly swept away to the land of no worries and absolute bliss. Sooner or later reality catches up. Is it better to wait for the other shoe to drop? At least then you wouldn't be disappointed. How foolish I was to think that I was not the biggest loser in the world. Now I realize I need a medal for that so I can hang it around my neck so that I'll never forget my insignificant role in this world. 

Somebody That I Used to Know - Walk off the Earth (Gotye - Cover)

SPEAK!

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Say something will you? Why are you so quiet? What are you thinking about? How am I even supposed to have a decent conversation with you if you won't say anything, let alone anything decent? What are you a mute? Don't you have anything to say? Anything at all?

No.

No?

No, I don't have anything to say. And I find that if I have don't have anything to say it's best I shut up. My mind only seems to speak the language of thoughts, not people. I can have hours and hours of conversations with myself in my head but can't seem to have the ability nor the will to keep up a conversation with an actual person. The world is just too dull a place for me to keep my attention in. That is why I prefer to wander in my thoughts. There no one judges me for what I say, no one even expects me to pay attention to whatever sound they're producing and pathetically wait for my brilliant reply. Why is it that I have to speak at all? Why should I when the right words refuse to come out of my mouth? They all just patiently wait to be written and they don't mind. I used to not mind too. But now I do, now that the course of my life depends on them. Words, why do you always fail me? But is it really the words? Or is it the thoughts that refuse to form in the first place. If I really thought about what I have to say then all I have to do is say it, right? I guess I don't think about what to say because I don't feel there's a need to. I don't feel anything. Is there something wrong with me if I don't feel anything? I don't feel the urgency in a situation when my relationship with someone depends on the pathetic little sounds that come out of my mouth. I can't call that speech because I don't think the other party really understands what I'm helplessly trying to convey. I used to wish that I had teleportation as my superpower, and I'd wish that if I only had one wish. Now I wish I could just teleport people into my thoughts so they would truly understand what I'm trying to say. 

Happy Zombie

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I'm gonna enjoy it while it lasts. I know I've been in constant zombie state for about a month now but today I accomplished something. I set a goal and I achieved it. It wasn't a big one but the fact that I stuck to it until the end meant a lot. Epiphany of the day: set smaller more achievable goals so that by the end of the day when you're dog tired and in zombie autopilot you can sleep in peace because you know that today you accomplished something. :)

Lunar Eclipse 10.12.11

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Last night we were rehearsing for our performance next week *eek i'm so psyched*. So we were busy rehearsing (or fooling around whatever you call it) when i happened to look up at the sky which was mysteriously darker than usual. Lo and behold there was a lunar eclipse right there all along (from around 7.30pm). And at that moment the eclipse was at its height as in the moon was a big red ball. Then I started yelling at everyone "koraaang! Ecliiiiipse!" (you guys! eclipse!) and their response was "kiteorang dah tau lame dah" (we already know). And the cold water splashed in my face. Then I grabbed my phone to tell this someone that there's an eclipse right now and the reply was "I wanna watch it with you"... :)

Has a phone call made your day?

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Today was not made beautiful until the phone rang, and that's all i'm gonna say.. :)